Grandma

Grandma,

What to say?

You've been with me

You've given me love

You've given me hugs

You've given me smiles

Grandma,

As my uncle said

I would've grabbed your hand

At least once more,

I would've given you anything

I would've given you my life

I would've given you my soul

Grandma, 

You already have my soul

My soul's with you

Wherever you happen to be

Grandma,

Since you left, 

My life's been nothing 

My life's been but a hole

A hole of emptiness

A hole without warmth

A hole without sun

Grandma,

Why did you leave?

Why am I this way?

What did you have?

What was it that made you like that?

Grandma,

You were more than a mother

You were more than a father

You were more than a friend

You were great,

Though that's no excuse

No excuse to avoid...

To avoid other grandiose words

Grandma,

I would write to you

I would hug your breath

I would hug your smell

I would hug your air

I would hug your eyes

Grandma,

It hurts 

It hurts and...

And you can't help me

Though I know you are

You always were

You surely are here

Grandma,

I miss you.